152nd post.
and I should make things clear.

If you're reading this, i just hope you know that pretending nothing has ever happened wouldn't work. Waiting won't either. You need to step up and solve the problems that you think you have caused. If you said you're selfish, and you shouldn't have done what you did, show me. just saying it doesn't mean a thing to me. really. What's the point of saying "i'm a jerk" if you're going to say "i want to be me" right after? those 4 smses were just really really confusing for me. one moment you act as if you're going to be the perfect boyfriend from now on cause you understand what i'm driving at. The next moment, your "i want to be me" and "be carefree". that's why i asked you whats your stand.
You should know how I feel right now. And if you're going to break my heart again, could you give me a warning in advance? I just don't want to pick myself up again. It's tiring.