151st post.
& I'm not gonna give a damn.

I can't believe it. I matter less than your family, yes okay i think that's reasonable. I matter less than your sleep, fine maybe you're were on the verge on dying. I matter less than your classmates and your class? I'm not angry because you're going to your chalet. I'm angry cus it's not like its a last minute thing. one week in advance and now you're telling me the night before that you have class chalet? I don't care. seriously. The least you could do is try to make things better. But you're not going to. I know. But that's okay. Cause I know you well enough.

When the true colours show.



150th post.
and I guess TT just isn't the right sport.

I just felt so angry today. It's just I wanted to say IKR to every setence Coach said. Why should I even keep up this fake image all by myself. Making up excuses for you and whatnot. Dealing with the funny looks and questions I get from everyone. Seriously, I'm just sick of all this and I can't wait for it to be over. And you know what? I'm just dreading 29 November like mad and you don't even care and understand. IKR.

I can't keep up.
And you don't know how much this hurts.



149th post.
believe, that you can do it.

hey dear, i know it's been a tough day and u feel dejected. well, who wouldn't. but as i said, you just gotta forget about how badly (or how well for the following papers) and start fighting for the next one. this is how its like. and this is how you gotta stay strong, at least for the 20 days okay? It's stressful and competitive. you just gotta listen to the right advice and ignore the negative comments. don't give up. no matter what. you've come so far. just look back at all the years you've spent preparing for this. Don't waste it. for the next few papers, think through your thoughts carefully before penning it down. Just a mere few more seconds of thinking time could save you plentiful marks that could have been wasted carelessly. But if you already did, why bother wasting any more time. Get those marks back, from other papers or even other subjects. you know that all of us are behind you. your friends, your family, and me. (: so just hang in there. 20 more days. im counting down for ya.
<3



148th post.
And nothing can spoil my glorious mood.
or so i think


Fly Me To The Moon

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my life with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, in other words
In other words, in other words
In other words
I love ... you



147th post.
and things get better.

Somehow, with every closed window comes an open door.
cliche as it sounds, I never fail to reminded to keep my friends close.
and my close friends closer.
the time, memories and hardship that we've spent together has strengthen our bond but instead, allow us to take each other for granted at times.
and i supposed, with more hardships, we know that we are still close and there for each other.
may time, people and conflicts never split us apart.
Here's to us!

OMG PA2 TOMORROW.
bring your guts, people.