& i miss you.

70th post.
ohh man blogging seems really meaningless now.

i tried so hard.

when i was young.
i cried. you comforted me.
and scolded him.
when i was older.
i grumbled. you acted like i was an insensible girl.
you think he's right.
and now.
i keep things to myself.
maybe it is better this way.

i want you.
to be by my side.
all the time.
will you?



69th post.
& we rocked the stage.

EXCO '08.
we so rocked the stage.
haha thanks for all compliments.
on how well we did!
(:
after that amaths test.
which i totally screwed.
and i dont give a damn.
lunch with lynette cavan and edwin.
sent lynette on bus.
then went to plza sing.
met with enlai and walked around.
chat with meixuan and her pri sch friends.
then went to emax.
ohh man cavan me OWNS enlai edwin in fifa.
haha. ohh then we got owned in halo3.
but its okay! haha.
cause its my first time playing halo.
and edwin's a back stabber! haha.

thats when everything goes oh-so-wrong.
-& i dont wanna talk bout it-
no one (except cp and yc) knows bout it.
and im gonna stop letting it out.
because no matter what i do,
nothing's ever gonna change.

went to bugis with cavan edwin.
to get cavan's specs.
lol that paikia wanna look nerd.
and yup waited for bus.
decided there and then i wont go home early.

thanks for being there.
really enjoyed my time.
well at least i could force a smile or two right?
so stop complaining bout me not smiling!

left at eleven. reached home late.
oh man my lying skills improved.

THANKS TO:
cavan lynette edwin alicia shawn CP kimwee yaochang colin roi and many others.
[if i left u out tag me on my tagboard and i'll add ur name. sincere apologies!]
for being there for me all the time.
(: i love you guys.
and no matter how small or how big, you changed my life.
for the better. thanks.
because without you guys i'd never been the way i am now.
and i'll always be there for you.

THANKS. for everything.
i dont know. for some reason you wont tell me whats happening.
hm but somehow im sure u'll tell me when the time is right.
and im looking forward to that time.
anyways thanks.
and i'll be here. right by your side.
no matter what happens.
so dont give up on me alrights?
(:



68th post.
ohh man suddenly feel like updating.

now we're left with 33 days to eye.
yes i tink i sound like im studying.
but im here slacking away.
arggh gotta get back my mugging mood.
cant wait for eye to end.
then i can start my full range activities.
cant wait for olevels to end.
then i can finally fix things up properly with u.
its difficult living like this.
but somehow i still believe it's worthed it.
dont prove me wrong. prove me right.

iloveyou.yesistilldo.aftersolong.
idontknow.likeisaid.icantwaitforolevelstoend.
whatmatters.imhereforyou.andialwayswillbe.