freak.
one word to describe my day : defeated.
thanks to dillian and zuo hong for trying to get me high on the way home.. sianz.. only got one thing on my mind to blog about. yes, it's not about him. not a single bit about him.

a pathetic 3/15. i dunno wad to say. i mugged. i really did. real hard; real long. wth. i can play all day before my maths and science test and still score. well, at least a B3. but geography. mugged. for 2 days. i really did. trust me people i did. totally defeated. almost cried today during geog. i didn't know wad to say. but i knew the girls would make a big fuss out of it. so i held back my tears. im wanting to take geog next year. for my only humans. hopes are dashed. i've got nth to say. really. why?! i pin my hopes on this common test. really, i did. i study that idiotic piece of paper and book for 2 whole days. and i got one mark. one pathetic mark. i wrote one page. not little or anything. i just didn't phrase as she wanted and i got a 0. giving up. really. i don't understand. is it my fault im dumb? the first time i don't dare to give my paper to my parents. yes. my frenz envied me. for my high marks despite not studying much. but really, i studied for this test. i even switched off my phone. yes, i did. i dunno wad to say. totally rejected. YOU even wrote in my paper to pay attention in class. I DID. I REALLY DID!!! forget it. im giving up. nope, not on the subject. but on u to get my grades up. gonna bring my geog ttbk home to study. every single day of my life till mid year. i cant afford to fail again. arggh, really hating the thought of having to sign it. wanting to forge. nevermind. i shall be a good girl and risk getting scolded. wth, i noe i WILL.
freak, u guys are having ur birthday soon. and im gonna give u guys a test paper with 3/15 on it. sorry. really sorry. im letting you down. i noe. but if u guys dun want me anymore, i dun care. throw me out. i dun mind.. it beats listening to u scolding us all the time. really. i love u guys. but i dun think YOU love me.
-hamster