100th post.
and it isnt a good one.

haiz. a pathetic B3. pathetic. what was i thinking? mugging and getting this shitty result. i needed the a1 or even an a2. and now, hope's gone. olevels isnt as easy as i thought it was. well, no more fun and games. (okay, maybe just a little bit) but ya, from now on, yiting's gonna be a good girl. she'll start studying HARD for tests and exams. start paying FULL attention in class. that's how life's gonna be till after my o's. i dont wanna waste a year then start regretting. yes. live life without regrets. i dont want to be stuck crying my eyes out at the end of the year. i dont want to have to choose between JC and poly, plus the doubt of being kicked out of JC. no way. yiting's gonna start being a winner! no time for being a loser.

after today, i realise how much experience actually means. olevels and exams seem so "passable" happy-go-lucky. but well, the pain comes when u know that pathetic B3's gonna stay with you for the rest of your lives. i cried. just a little though. thanks to rachel lynette shuhadah jamie junrui clarence kimwee and especially shawn. im sorry i felt sad, well, it's inevitable. but dont worry. i'll come back ready to fight again. tomorrow. tears. i dont ever wanna cry over results again. the feeling just SUCKS.

hennes. i cant believe it. after i got my result slip, after some time, i finally start to realise that deep down, it's yourself that matters the most. at the time that i needed you the most, IM SORRY, you just werent there. when i cried and i need some emotional support, IM SORRY, you just werent there. at your hardest moments, i was there. supporting you from behind. risking my phone to message you so many times, just to make sure you're okay. IM SORRY, you didn't even bother to reply. what can i say? you're just gonna tag to say i've flamed you again right? do whatever you want. IM SORRY. i've changed.

rachel.lynette.jamie.shuhadah.junrui.clarence.kimwee. thanks guys. (: you saw my tears. haha THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE RARE OKAY! 5th time i cried in this school. for once, not for him. then after that, for him. so ya anyway just loads of appreciation for just being there. hahaha to junrui: dont be so fierce next time kay?

shawn. hey dude. thanks. for everything you've done. well, at the time i was crying and even till now. just for you kept playing over and over again in my mind. i hate crying in front of people. really i do. it's so "embarrassing" haha! rest assured i'll be fine tomorrow. just hope my chem test's not going to be affected. emo-jogging on sat. i can own you man! :D

ijustwishihavesomebodytohug.
ipromiseiwontletgo.