I'M NOT EMO LE.
BUT IM NOT HAPPY EITHER.
no one will ever understand what it feels like.
to be me.
i'm freaking tired of all this shit. seriously.

gosh. it's so tough not to use com for 2 days.
not have anywhere to pour my feelings out to.
i miss u, my darling com.

wednesday
went to orchard with shawn, edwin, cavan, eugene and kc.
emo-ed on the bus ride there.
then shawn come and pei me.
haha and he made me listen to happy songs.
reach le went to eat prawn mee.
almost got lost on the way there.
thanks to edwin, again.
haha, guess he loves making pple walk:D
then went to collect shawn's phone.
like he finally got his phone back.
and im like so in love with that nice blue soccer ball.
then walk around to get food and stuff.
took bus 7 with shawn, edwin and cavan.
more happy songs(:
and we open our books and put on our laps.
but ended up chit chatting as usual.
and then i change to bus 70.
emo-ed all the way home.

thursday
recess eat with my beloved bro.
bully me sia he.
make me put back the bowls.
then went to pei shawn do duty.
see, im so nice right?
and guess what?
'a guy' kp him.
i'll make sure it wun happen again.
ha. what fucking attitude was that eh?
am i not even worthy of ur greeting?
such that ur hi was a tap on the head?!
im not a dog. much less urs.
after sch bio test.
oh i screwed it up.
like my physics.
yes. behold the failure of 3ep.
what the heck. im so gonna pia for mye.
haiz then went to parkway to eat with shawn, edwin, cavan, zong yu and en lai.
and i forgot to get money from mum.
feel so poor seh.
then went to get eugene's present.
it's his birthday tomorrow!
then went to edwin's house play bball.
we are so nood sia.
cavan rocks at soccer.
but his bball cmi can.:D
so we played soccer instead.
i had a freaking good time today
i had a freaking good time with my friends.
i had a freaking bad school day.

friday
went to sch and it rain today.
started the bad day with the loss of my comb on the bus.
haiz. then lessons. boring maths.
then bio. and i failed.
a pathetic 10/25.
then ss lecture.
'surprise' test. it was fun.
like playing crossword lidat.
haha. fill in the blanks + open book.
recess went to get food for shawn.
and go pei him do duty agn.
lol. his fren ask him if i was his gf.
[i noe wad zha bo kia means!]
then we were like 'wad's that?'
lols. tink that guy was stunned. haha.
then go drink tea. lols.
super funny tea drinking session.
then eng. and it was kinda SUPER boring seh.
went for lunch with rachel and lyn.
pei them go 3ly take test.
while they took the test, i went back class pack my papers.
finished early so do my emaths paper.
see im a good girl!:D
they finish test le went to ehist lecture.
kinda boring but ya
thanks to the teachers who took their time out!
went home with lyn.

CP: i still cant stop thinking of a way to make things go back to the way it used to be. call me stubborn, but i wun give up. and i know u dun want me to too.
Shawn: thanks dude. for making me not emo. but i guess it only works when u're there. i love ur company boy! it's like i have nothing to hide and i can just be my emo self(: yeah. and im a distracted girl and u're so influenced:D thanks for peeling prawns for me!
eugene: see, i left a message for ya! thanks for helping me carry my stuff, sistah.
hennes: im not giving up nor changing. cuz what im doing is not wrong.
edwin: lols. dude we gotta go train for bball big time. plus our cooperation. long time never play real bball with ya le!
cavan: lols. u and ur fade aways. go train up ur bball! girls like guys who can play bball. well, at least i do. haha. and u are my bro. so must listen to wad i say!
lynette: my beloved girlfriend. lols. thanks for pei-ing me go home today. we'll go blade someday alright? haha falling on ur bum is kinda fun:D thanks for spamming my tagboard!

first physics.
then bio.
a freakig 11/30 and 10/25.
wad else?
chem?
this sucks.
it's like..
haiz.
guess i just gotta buck up.
no more fun and games.

so many failed study attempts.
guess the best of friends can never study together.
cause we just have so much to talk about.
hey. u guys rock.
rock on.