love is the best thing in life

2012-01-25T11:28:00.002+08:00

176th post.
I stopped wondering if you'd do the same.

Cause now I'm just sure that you won't.

2011-05-14T12:19:00.000+08:00

175th post.
Next time.

Don't bother apologising if you're going to do it again.

Get your priorities right girl.
Making the same mistakes over and over again.
Get your head straight and know what's important and what's not.

2011-04-14T15:17:00.001+08:00

174th post.
F-ing disappointing.

OMG juggling is damn fun ahhhh :D

2011-04-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

173rd post.
Good luck for tomorrow (:

Routine and frequency doesn't mean life's boring.
In fact, it just means that the people are wonderful enough;
to not be the least bit uninterested (:

Strive hard and don't let your motivation falter!

Learn to love more than to be loved <3
Can't wait for every dawn.

2011-04-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

172nd post.
can't help but feel this way..

stop sinking in, girl.
you need to remember.

2011-04-11T19:57:00.001+08:00

171st post.
T.I.M.E. is precious.

It's amazing how a simple action;
or lack of action;
can affect me so much.
<3

2011-04-10T21:22:00.002+08:00

170th post.
I miss you <3.

Loving someone is not about being able to live with him;
but not being able to live without <3.

Just keep moving on with life and keep the motivations coming in.
Be disciplined and do what you said you will.
The others, who gives a shit about them.
You know what and who you need.

A**HOLE. lead by example and maybe you'll have the right to tell me what to do.
Else, keep your nose out of other people's business.

Keep thinking: tomorrow will be a better day.
And stop doubting. When it counts.

2011-04-04T21:42:00.002+08:00

169th post.
Tomorrow's going to be AWESOME :D

OMG the thought of P.E can just kill me.
What if I haven't even healed from last tuesday's aches -.-
FML.

You keep me awake during lessons;
even if it means I'm daydreaming~

It's not about those who don't matter;
It's about those who DO. <3

2011-03-30T21:37:00.001+08:00

168th post.
Just lower your expectations girl.

Why bother saying if you won't do it?
Maybe i should just not give a damn.

2011-03-30T17:03:00.002+08:00

167th post.
I don't know what to expect.

I'm glad it turned out this way, i think.
Well, at least the day's over.

2011-03-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

166th post.
Wow thanks.

Good job. You've just managed to irritate me to the max on one of my worst days.
Sometimes, you just don't seem to learn.
The previous times you threaded on my toes and what happened?
You never win.
Just make one small tiny mistake and just watch me do my thing.
Yes, my fault but you're just such a supportive brother right?
Thanks but no thanks.
Maybe even he's on my side.

2011-03-27T18:36:00.002+08:00

165th post.
I should have known earlier.

Life is such a joke and i'm just glad i'm blesses with brains.
Learn to treasure before you lose.
And soon, the world starts mocking you.
And guess what: its all your own doing.
At least, no more guilt.
Totally fine and happy, the world except you (:

Finally im no longer blind, at all.
<3

2011-03-26T01:12:00.001+08:00

164th post.
Should i take my words back?

Let's just hope MBT went relatively okay.
I don't need another burden on my shoulders.

2011-03-26T00:56:00.001+08:00

163rd post.
LIFE ROCKS :D

AHHH TT FTW! :D
it's amazingly how bonded we are despite the sian-ness for trainings haha!
FOOD ROCKS and some noobs just cant eat uh! :D
tonight was just great (:
thanks guys.
LIKE. ROCKS. TTM.
(:

<3 it's like i never knew.

2011-03-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

162nd post.
Don't ask.

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby..

2011-03-04T10:14:00.002+08:00

161st post.
<3 the way you make me smile

林俊傑-背對背擁抱
话总说不清楚
该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套
旧帐总翻不完
谁无理取闹
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
然后战火再燃烧

Chorus:
我们背对背拥抱
滥用沉默在咆哮
爱情来不及变老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我们背对背拥抱
真话兜著圈子乱乱绕
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道
爱的警告(这警告)

我不要一直到
形同陌路变成自找
既然可以拥抱
就不要轻易放掉

2011-02-27T23:52:00.003+08:00

161st post.
If only.

If i could change things, i would have just ended it after alevels.
When u didnt want me despite how much i wanted you.
Think i'd be better off managing that pain when you couldnt care less.
Its so hard to talk to you now.
So hard to tell you that its impossible between us and even harder to get you to see that fact.
I'm sorry. It doesn't matter what you want or what I want.
All i see now is what i must do.
Being together would just make lives difficult.
Yours, mine and everyone else's.
Let me tell you now that my feelings have died.
I love no one and my only aim is academics.
The things you do don't make me happier.
In fact, it works the opposite way.
Hasn't it occur to you that you're always failing to provide for me the way that i want you to?
I need emotional support not emotional stress.
The things you do makes me feel worst than i felt.
I'd be better off knowing you dont care rather than you do, just not when we were together..
Just move on, alright.

2011-02-27T22:49:00.004+08:00

160th post.
& seeing this just makes me smile (:

I can't trust because of the past.
And that's just so sad.
Why ruin chances cause of past bad experiences.
Keep thinking abt jyou hyou and iyou.
I just gotta learn to let go.
Life sucks when you know..
No one's perfect so why hurt yourself.
Ultimately, its you that matters the most.

Suddenly, i wonder if u're still reading this.
If i still mean a thing to you.
If you do, h im sorry.
But that was the only way we could let go.
Just hope it's nice where you are.

I'll keep waiting for another <3

2011-02-27T12:21:00.002+08:00

159th post.
and it just gets weird.

Why do you act like you care so much when we both know I mean nothing to you.
The way you try so hard just makes me not want to talk to you.
Life's like this: when the people gets harder to get along with, just avoid them.

You know you don't want to.
But yet a part of you does.

2011-02-26T12:08:00.002+08:00

158th post.
<3 the wonderful things in life are the simplest!

Such a wonderful night (:
and it's gonna be another!
<3

Just not the right time..

ahh hewkit i miss junliang! :D

2011-02-19T20:13:00.001+08:00

157th post.
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted.

2011-02-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

156th post.
and the memories keep flooding.

House Rules - Jodi Picoult:
Sometimes I think the human heart is just a simple shelf. There's only so much you can pile onto it before something falls off an edge and you are left to pick up the pieces.

With every expectations comes disappointment.
Even if it's expectations of yourself.

It's easier if you pretend nothing matters.
Even if it does.

2011-02-13T15:58:00.002+08:00

155th post.
and i miss the times.

I know it's been a year but i still keep wishing you're still in the same school, same class as me. I want to go back to the times when nothing matters but me. no one can affect the way i feel. i miss the times you would scold me for even wasting a single tear on him. I need someone to remind me that it's okay. it's okay to be alone.

Do what you know is best.
for him. for yourself.
and one day, it's gonna turn out right.

He's not the one, you know it.

2011-01-04T01:04:00.001+08:00

154th post.
i'm doubtful.

calm down, girl.
no matter what. you just gotta know your limits.
you know that it's alright.
you know who. you know why.

so live it.

2010-12-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

153rd post.
And I just feel like laughing at myself.

My life is a big fat JOKE.

& I'm just dreading Tuesday and Thursday.
Okay, maybe just Tuesday.
ARGH.

Confessions. (:
NICE. Revenge comes in many forms.
Target the weakness, then enjoy the show.
<3

Different is good.

2010-12-04T00:50:00.002+08:00

152nd post.
and I should make things clear.

If you're reading this, i just hope you know that pretending nothing has ever happened wouldn't work. Waiting won't either. You need to step up and solve the problems that you think you have caused. If you said you're selfish, and you shouldn't have done what you did, show me. just saying it doesn't mean a thing to me. really. What's the point of saying "i'm a jerk" if you're going to say "i want to be me" right after? those 4 smses were just really really confusing for me. one moment you act as if you're going to be the perfect boyfriend from now on cause you understand what i'm driving at. The next moment, your "i want to be me" and "be carefree". that's why i asked you whats your stand.
You should know how I feel right now. And if you're going to break my heart again, could you give me a warning in advance? I just don't want to pick myself up again. It's tiring.

2010-11-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

151st post.
& I'm not gonna give a damn.

I can't believe it. I matter less than your family, yes okay i think that's reasonable. I matter less than your sleep, fine maybe you're were on the verge on dying. I matter less than your classmates and your class? I'm not angry because you're going to your chalet. I'm angry cus it's not like its a last minute thing. one week in advance and now you're telling me the night before that you have class chalet? I don't care. seriously. The least you could do is try to make things better. But you're not going to. I know. But that's okay. Cause I know you well enough.

When the true colours show.

2010-11-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

150th post.
and I guess TT just isn't the right sport.

I just felt so angry today. It's just I wanted to say IKR to every setence Coach said. Why should I even keep up this fake image all by myself. Making up excuses for you and whatnot. Dealing with the funny looks and questions I get from everyone. Seriously, I'm just sick of all this and I can't wait for it to be over. And you know what? I'm just dreading 29 November like mad and you don't even care and understand. IKR.

I can't keep up.
And you don't know how much this hurts.

2010-11-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

149th post.
believe, that you can do it.

hey dear, i know it's been a tough day and u feel dejected. well, who wouldn't. but as i said, you just gotta forget about how badly (or how well for the following papers) and start fighting for the next one. this is how its like. and this is how you gotta stay strong, at least for the 20 days okay? It's stressful and competitive. you just gotta listen to the right advice and ignore the negative comments. don't give up. no matter what. you've come so far. just look back at all the years you've spent preparing for this. Don't waste it. for the next few papers, think through your thoughts carefully before penning it down. Just a mere few more seconds of thinking time could save you plentiful marks that could have been wasted carelessly. But if you already did, why bother wasting any more time. Get those marks back, from other papers or even other subjects. you know that all of us are behind you. your friends, your family, and me. (: so just hang in there. 20 more days. im counting down for ya.
<3

2010-11-08T10:55:00.001+08:00

148th post.
And nothing can spoil my glorious mood.
~~or so i think~~

Fly Me To The Moon

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my life with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, in other words
In other words, in other words
In other words
I love ... you

2010-11-03T08:50:00.002+08:00

147th post.
and things get better.

Somehow, with every closed window comes an open door.
cliche as it sounds, I never fail to reminded to keep my friends close.
and my close friends closer.
the time, memories and hardship that we've spent together has strengthen our bond but instead, allow us to take each other for granted at times.
and i supposed, with more hardships, we know that we are still close and there for each other.
may time, people and conflicts never split us apart.
Here's to us!

OMG PA2 TOMORROW.
bring your guts, people.

2010-10-28T16:28:00.002+08:00

146th post.
and i guess this is it.

Finally, FINALLY, it's submission time. i'm not saying i hate this, i just rather spend time my time after Promos enjoying myself. instead of stressing out over other things.

i still have feelings, and that's why i still care. sometimes i'm disappointed. but i know this is not the right time. Speak Now - Taylor Swift. Yes, perhaps i'll regret not telling you how i feel. but.. i guess this just isn't the right time. fine, i'm scared it'll turn out all wrong. it's different, i'm sure you have to agree. and i can't help but feel this way. It's like, i know nothing i say will change this. and thats why im keeping quiet. i won't wait till its too late, just till it's the right time. maybe till then, i'm gonna be fine. gonna be okay without you.

all this time alone helped me re-prioritise. i think i know how i should split my time. instead of in the past. i know better now.

because i still love you.
history will NOT repeat itself.
trust me (cavan)

2010-10-19T08:17:00.000+08:00

145th post.
i love this song.

Would You Be There

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...
<3

2010-10-19T08:01:00.002+08:00

144th post.
and i love the peeps in my life (:

Jia Lin: hey yo cutie, (: you're such a strong girl for hanging on to the things you love even though it can be so tough sometimes. Stay cheerful no matter what!

Hildy: hey beloved first wife, (: you never fail to cheer me up with your jokes, reetardness and your cute smile :D Stay happy and keep lovin' me. (like Macs ya know)

Odelia: hey dear, so sorry you always have to share me with others, but its okay! im sure you dont mind. haha! :D you look so serious when you're doing work cus im right behind you now! take cares girl, you can do it!

Siyan: hey girl, you're so sweet all the time, except when you're playing sims of course. okay lets not get there. but anyway, don't let anything bring you down. make sure you bounce back with every obstacle you encounter.

Putri: hey purti, give me some chocolates! :D QUICK! slow poke. fine, at least i got my chocolates. haha, it's been AWESOME knowing you! like wow. hahahaha! *stops here* yup all the FUN FUN FUN times we spend just totally make me more guniang -.- haha! :D Stay strong alright!

Yi Ting: i love you <3

yi lin: hey siao zha bo. :D i remember you cannot spell szb! you're quiet! chit chat more! and hang out with us more! after JC, im sure you'll miss us like cRAZZY. or rather, miss ME! :D

xiuhui: hey beloved classmate of 3 years and counting, (:i sure hope we all can be OGLs together! :D it'll be so much fun and we can (hopefully) meet some CCH people too! :D Stay happy and PS: dont be so smart!

Verniecia: hello ah ma. you're the person who MADE me post this, so be honoured! :D haha (: ah ma!! you're so nice, lets go swimming again soon! aww man, totally LOVE the time we spend together, and next year, when we're busybusybusy, im gonna miss playing and just hanging around with you guys. (: take cares ahma, can i have my ah ma porridge soon?

2010-10-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

143rd post.
mixed feelings, yet again.

In weal OR in woe, in health OR in sickness, in wealth OR in ~~not-so-wealth~~ poverty. i know you can cheer me up anytime, anywhere, and no matter what happens. sometimes, it takes a few wrong people and a few BEST FRIENDS to help us find the right one. stay strong okay, cause no matter what, we're here (:

Heart to heart talks on the bus ride home that totally reminded me of last time. Well, now, it's different though, you know why (: plenty of good advices but i'm glad i only listened to some, HAHA! :D reply smses faster, brudder. some things are meant to be ignored, as long as your heart says it's okay to.

Hey girls, you know what, the 9 of us survived this long journey together. so no matter what happens, we know we got each other to count on. No matter what happens, we're still the beloved 8girls 1guy gang from 10S203. (: stay strong alright. We still need to focus on PW and get our A for AAAAlevels (: so hang in there, and just have fun. :D PS: I LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS!

TRIPLETS FTW! If i could change one thing in my life, i'd know you girls earlier. so that i can be more man. LOL! no lah. well, i really enjoyed spending time with you guys, despite the guniang-ness haha! and all the reetarded things we did that always put a smile on my face (: no matter what, stay happy and crazy alrights! :D we can get through ANYTHING.

I'm glad I didn't, I'm glad I didn't, I'm glad I didn't...
Smile, you've done yourself proud.

2010-08-29T10:31:00.004+08:00

142nd post.
& don't forget what you're here for.

you hate feeling that way.
so start working hard so it won't happen.

look down inside of you and think about what you really want.
or you'll just end up with nothing but a pack of lies.

tears, they sting.

2010-08-25T18:03:00.002+08:00

141st post.
yet again.

hold back those tears.
cause that's another reason for him to do it again.

I LOVE.

2010-07-31T11:42:00.003+08:00

140th post.
and i need more discipline.

The best way to catch a butterfly is not to chase it at all;
But to remain so still that it made the choice to light on your shoulder.

I need you back next to me
To keep reminding me that it's worthed it.

Keep smiling;
Keep shining;
Someday. Just someday.
It will all come true.

2010-07-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

139th post.
and i'm listening to my own heart beating.

today was BORING. as usual.
ARGH. i really wonder what's going on in my life.
& if it'll all be for nothing in the future.

will you think that you're all alone,
if no one's there to hold your hands.

i'm not sure. i'm not sure.
i'm not sure.

2010-07-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

138th post.
and it just gets better and better (:

really enjoyed myself today (:
although we didn't do much work cause someone kept sleeping~
but still (:
AWESOME NASI LEMAK.

thanks for finally letting boyboy sit on your lap.
just goes to show that you've accepted and welcomed him into our family (:
i know you don't like furry stuff, but still, boyboy's so LOVABLE :D
haha take care in army bro.

mixed feelings.

~~i don't wanna ever feel that fist wrapped around my heart.~~

2010-07-24T23:28:00.003+08:00

137th post.
thanks darling (:

hey baby, thanks for the soft toy and that sweet card (: haha although it was a little drama, but it really made my day! (: i love you.

well, it wasnt as bad as i expected, im still able to eat, thats the most important thing. and talk (: haha so life's gonna go on~

totally addicted to the song If I Had You~

I hate July.

2010-07-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

136th post.
and I should stop counting on others.

hey girl. look here. it doesn't matter how others treat you as long as you treat yourself right. sometimes when things seem to go wrong, when they don't turn out the way you want it to, change it yourself. you got to start fighting for what you believe in. make time out for what's important and what you love. instead of wasting your time on all those things/people who ain't worthed it.

sudden craving for CHILLI CRAB, YOGHURT and maggie mee~

explanations are merely excuses if they don't give me an answer.
it doesn't matter, cause you ain't me.
and I matter most.

be brave girl. things are gonna change. for the better.
just keep it going. everything will be over soon. BSS.

你说的话总那么好听~

don't cry because it's over.
smile because it happened.
smile because you know you tried to make it happen.

i don't think i can live without you.
i know.

2010-07-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

135th post.
and u leave me speechless sometimes.

CHUNGCHENG BAZAAR was. . .
right, i just think it's just a day for reunion.
i guess the stalls didn't really matter to ex students.
its each other that matters.
and oh hey the lake flooded.
well. it'll be much better with more soccer courts in the school so we dont have to wait. -.-
but any case, it just reminded me of how important sec sch friends are.
yes cavan, ):

boo. im speechless.

surprised to see you? no.
just hated that look of anger on your face.
that means you're there only for a stupid and pathetic reason.
give it up.

2010-07-13T17:26:00.002+08:00

134th post.
ONLY U. <3

ARGH. today's a bad day. at first. only U for econs. and ): just plain cocky timetable. like sian -.- well at least i get to talk to rachel, a little :D hehe. after school was DA BOMB. :D yes. in the end, we didnt manage to like burn down anybody's shop. and thanks ronald (donalr) for being such a sport and like being dragged to white sands, then tampines with us! :D i bet you had a GREAT and SCARY time hehe. CHANUKAH CHANUKAH.

putri --> purti --> puti --> ???
:D watching the hossan leong video right now. hehe fine, it's alamak.

hey hewkit, cheer up okay! :D no matter what, you have me and ???(see above)!

life's what you make it.
so let's make it rock <3
BC FTW.

2010-07-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

133rd post.
shit. this is freaking outdated.

HEY PEOPLE.
Look who won 9-legged race for fun festique~
10S203 rocks ttttttttttm! :D

and i'm just glad they're good enough for you.

ouch, i just slammed my fingers into the door -.-
TIRED. cause of WC. but yet, worthed it.

<3 keep smiling. and hanging on.
cause it ain't just about you.

2009-07-14T18:25:00.001+08:00

132nd post.
and im tired.

FRIDAY CLASS OUTING
WHOO! (:

except looking forward to the end of the week,
i have no idea how i pass it.
wow. 104 days to olevels.
and yet, im slacking around.

and i need my sense of urgency.

2009-07-10T17:18:00.002+08:00

131st post.
and i love postan.

lol its just a medicine.
that helps me overcome my cramps.
(:

roar im so freaking tired.
not physically.
i dont know why but.
i'm so drained.
i was practically staring blankly out of the DIRTY bus window.
yup i hate bus rides.
especially when im emo.
):

2009-07-07T15:59:00.002+08:00

130th post.
and i think my blog is so dead.
but wtheck.

school was ... fun.
i guess.
haha memorable moments are making fun of mr chua.
for like SUPER long.
its nice to imitate his voice.

yups then went home ASAP.
to pei mum and end up she sleep -.-
but anyway nice bus ride home!
haha junrui is RANDOM. :D

well, sometimes im so confused.
maybe knocking my head on the wall would make me feel better.

(there, i updated)

2009-06-23T11:48:00.000+08:00

129th post.
and i think it's time.

my arm hurts.
and so does my heart.

2009-06-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

128th post.
and yiting is too tired to post.

2009-06-18T22:23:00.004+08:00

127th post.
and i love blue (:

i love my soccer.
went for cage today (:
again. 2 hours worthed of exercise.
then shopping at bugis street!
(: i love blue.
haha i bought a blue cardigan and a blue jacket.
YES THEY ARE DIFFERENT!
will upload pictures SOON! (:

2009-06-16T17:49:00.004+08:00

126th post.
im speechless.

roar. east coast park.
YAY! (:
haha i can TURN!
okay that sounds super random.
but im so proud of myself.
for making a SMOOTH turn. (:
smooth baby smooth.

okay. im officially worn out.
roars. from laughing.
and eating. SAKAE (:

I'd Lie - Taylor Swift
The Climb - Miley Cyrus

i still dare not listen to imissyou by miley cyrus.

2009-06-14T17:10:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY MAMA. CAUSE SHE'S AT WORK. AND IM HOME ALONE. MAMA, BRING ME OUT. I HATE BEING SICK CAUSE I GOTTA STAY HOME. I WANT TO GO OUT!! SHOPPING.

2009-06-14T17:05:00.004+08:00

124th post.
and i need 34907865124 more days.
to get used to being without you.

COME ON.
random numbers.

okay. enough of staying at home.
im going crazy.
i need my life back.
ROAR.

i want my school days back!
i know im slacking off.
but i cant do anything about it.

chemistry is boring.
physics is worst.
biology; nah havent thought bout it.

i need a jog.
and i'll get it tonight.

lalala.
so what.
count to ten.
and poof, hes gone.

2009-06-13T15:10:00.001+08:00

123rd post.
and i love my new skin (:

haha maybe life's gonna get better after all.
with nothing to concentrate on.
but my o's.

People: yiting's gonna start mugging.
like never before.

geesh and they always say it's hard to lie.

2009-06-08T22:09:00.005+08:00

122nd post.
and you made my day, little doggie.

maybe.
just maybe,
i can name you Cookie.
iloveyou.

2009-06-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

121st post.
and im gonna do whatever it takes.

ya well, life's changed.
and its no more pretty princess life anymore.
you want something, go get it yourself.
and look here, it doesnt help with your dumb, pathetic comments.
im trying my best to keep this family together.
and all you do is make senseless statements.
then telling me that im talking nonsense.
ya. get off my back.

when life gets hard, look around you.
everyone else's is too.
so get your head back in.
and start acting like you should be.
there's no more time for self-pity.
you want it so much, GO GET IT.
it aint easy. who said it was.
but its up to YOU to do whatever it takes.
cause if you dont, no one else would.
YUP THATS RIGHT.
YOU'RE BLOODY ALONE.

i know i dont need anyone.
yes. i'll get my mind off you.

2009-05-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

120th post.
and i think i like the way things are.
i dont know.

well, last night i had trouble sleeping again.
and i think i screwed up amaths a lil.
hmm at least paper 1 will help. i hope.

last night, you walked into my room.
you looked into my eyes and said 'i love you'.
but when i tried to hold your hand,
you just vanished.
then i woke up.

i like my breakfast.
breakfast was fun today.
dear yongming added to the crap.
haha. (: maybe we should hang out more often.
and i just cant stop laughing.

physics and biology papers to go.
can i say i've given up on prelims already?
the chemistry paper was so freaking difficult.
and i had no idea what i was doing throughout.
nevermind. its okay.
because i got cage to look forward to..
and i'll kick my way to happiness.

就算当一次傻瓜也无所谓...
只要有你陪伴我什么都愿意.

why am i going back to square one?

Give me what I deserve.

2009-05-08T15:38:00.002+08:00

119th post (:
and i like spending time at home.
especially from day 1-5.

a thousand and one songs describe my feelings now.
and im just so confused.
but at least one thing cheers me up.
thursday.tuesday.viewty.
well outings and a new phone.
who wouldnt be happy?
(: my beloved sakae.
heh.

wow no papers today.
and we all ended up slacking at home.
(: at least i could hear cavan's and edwin's voice.
then there's no space in my mind left for him.
haiz its all so difficult.
maybe we should just heed others' advice.
and not get into a r.s so early.
yah thats what im gonna do.

3 nights straight i lie in bed unable to fall asleep. i just want to block out those thoughts that make my tears flow uncontrollably. those happy memories with you.

YAY YITING IS A HAPPY GIRL!
~~yahright.~~

2009-05-05T18:42:00.002+08:00

118th post.
and yiting is so proud of herself.

cause i'm determined to leave everything behind.
for myself.
for him.
you seem so much happier without me.

but sadly, im gonna fail my combined humans again.
nevermind. not like i haven't done it a gazillion times before.

yes shawn, as promised!
i never get ownded by you! (:
cause i already promised myself to post when i get better.
haha in a way inspired by your tag.
so cheers to 99% (:

最後的風度 - Luo Zhi Xiang
boy, i finally understand why u love this song.
because i just heard it.
and just two lines into the chorus, i couldnt hold back my tears.
cheer up. cause everything's gonna be fine.
be a gentleman. (:

i owe you one last thing - happy valentine's day.
im sorry for breaking your heart 14.02.2009.
i will make it up to you. i promise.

everything's going back to normal.
finally. at least no hard feelings, i guess.
yiting's back to rock the world.

2009-02-14T22:42:00.002+08:00

117th post.
And it's Valentines day.

Valentine's Day.
To remind me of loneliness.
I'm not attached: is it good or bad?
I hear all those stories bout breakups and patches.
Jealous? No.
I see people in the streets all in pairs.
Jealous? No.
I can be just like them.
But i would have to give up on other things which are also dear and important.
Valentine's Day is a day spent with someone whom you love.
I think not.
Valentine's Day is a day spent with someone who loves you more than you love them.
So at least, there's a chance it wouldn't end up like any other day.

Happy Valentine's Day to all.
Treasure your loved ones and hang on tight/let it go as people to tell you to.
They want the best for you.

Sincere Apologies:
-For the super late post that's supposed to be on Valentine's Day.
-For killing my blog.
Yes. This is my last post.
Maybe some of you might understand why i chose 117 to be the last post.
Is it a mere coincidence or did I planned it to end this way?
That's up to you to guess.

Many big blows coming from all directions this year.
And each person knows of one (or two.)
But it doesn't matter.
I've bragged so much about being strong alone.
And now it's time for me to live up to my words.
No more hiding behind a blog, venting everything to the web.
Sometimes, one has to take it hard.
To understand what it's like to be burdened and then solve it.
All by myself.

2009-02-13T21:43:00.001+08:00

i thought i'd be happy.
i thought too much.
"hey.. i love you" - it dont work a single bit.
you know what? it sounds ever so "sincere".

ihatevalentine'sday.

2009-02-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

115th post.
and 3 more to my favourite.
and yes, i promise it's gonna be happy.)

well, today's "valentine's day" or rather a day to give out valentine's day. thanks to the following for their following (:
(listed in order)
`Huan Woon - timeout bars :D
`Shu Ling - cookie! :D
`Rachel - ferrero rocher :)
`Shirlyn - cookie~ :D
`Shawn - sweets (: (red ones)
`Catrin - origami flower :D
`Colin Neo - rose :DD (would give u an extra 'D' but it's pink!)
`Jun Rui - a random mint.
THANKS SO MUCH GUYS!

valentine's day tomorrow. to tell u the truth, i aint looking forward to it at all.
but still, thanks to the above people. cause u made my day. :) hmm really appreciate the thought, effort and $$$ put in (: i promise: i'll never forget you.

Hmm, anyone ever thought of the meaning of Valentine's Day? I think not. Cause if you did, I think no couple would be lovey-dovey, no one would be happily giving out random gifts to people they sometimes dont talk to for a whole day even within close walking range of each other. To me, true love/friendship must be shown at all times, except for certain circumstances which should happen rarely. Valentine's day is just another "birthday" if you would like to say it that way for BFs to "make it up" to their GFs or vice versa. Just to keep the love going, that two days is absolutely not enough. Why bother buying flowers and chocolates on 14.02 when you cant make her happy throughout her life? I bet no one would want to stick with someone who only makes them happy two days a year. cause that's just plain pathetic.

DIE-LE-MA.
when you're stuck and you don't know what to do,
don't forget: you're on your own.

2009-02-10T20:46:00.004+08:00

dear me finally got pictures to update.
they say a picture says a thousand words.
so, enjoy...

IM A GOOD GIRL!

AND THIS IS MY EVIL TWIN. WAKAKA!

special thanks to Shawny for getting me the pics.

special thanks to myself for taking the pics. (:

2009-02-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

113rd post.
and im bored.

cause im banned from singing until 8:11pm
*winks* my lucky number.
haha anywas yups.
maybe joining talentime.
still deciding on song, so... SHHUSSH!
(: ohh and if i join, i'll make sure i rock the stage!
wootz.

to all: jiayous. it doesnt matter if you can sing or not. you dont need to be able to sing to rock the stage. just make it yours. in your own special way.

2009-02-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

112nd post.
and im so not in the mood to blog.

i aint emo.
i aint sad.
im just having cramps.

ihateyou.
timeofthemonth.

2009-02-07T16:17:00.003+08:00

111st post.
and yiting shall be a happy girl!
i retyped this cause i accidentally deleted it. oopsiie.

life's filled with random numbers and im gonna start listing them out.
(shawn stop tickling me!)
okay back to posting (:
hmm i gotta start reviving all those nice memories in my life.
and from now on, there's just gonna be happy ones.
no more sad stories, no more emo problems.
just me and my award-winning smiles!

no more.no more.
because im worthed it.

2009-02-04T18:59:00.003+08:00

110th post.
and i cant wait for my next post.

today start off horrible.
with a pathetic 15/35 for physics test.
means girlgirl failed.
then cca, yehwen was nice enough to release us at
4:56pm
random timing due to ME! haha as usual.
yups then soccer frenzy.
cause i scored soo many goals against Clarence.
and his team is soooo bully-ish cause they kept pushing/touching me.
ROARRS!
yups and moral of the story: please duck when someone yells: YESSSS!
haha cause to end my schoolday, i got zammed in the face by qixian.
and i got a new nick now. GIRLGIRL [creator: xiangxi]
PS: im a hero too!

no more emo songs.
and i mean it.

2009-02-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

109th post.
and it's gonna be a short post.
dentist today.
itchy eyes due to contacts.
mild headache due to braces.
happy cause i ate ice cream.
sad cause of those no life flamers.

life's hard.but i'll get through it.
even if it means fighting against the world.

2009-01-30T18:47:00.002+08:00

108th post.
and i love this number.
and i love monopoly.

wakakaka life's getting better. well, after listening to "someone's watching over me" i guess it really is true. hm anyways yup lessons were boring as usual. did like shit for physics test. ate mac for lunch then went over to shawns house fr homework AND MONOPOLY. ITS FREAKING FUN OKAY!! except the fact that only two of us were playing. ROARS. but anyway, YUP. its BOARD OUTING tmr. sadly, less than half of EXCO is going, i think. that is just bad. EXCO OUTING TMR: weijie marc shawn and i. WOW. i wanna be X. wait no, i hate suckas. hmm okay i shall go post on dedicated blogs before those people scream at me :D im sooo nice lurh!!

dear colin.get well soon.
(:

sometimes i get so confused.
should i or should i not.
yet there's no one i can get advice from.
i guess thats just life.

2009-01-23T18:35:00.002+08:00

107th post.
well, my blog is filling up fast.
but today, all i can say is:
im appalled at what happened.
reasons: miscommunication, misunderstanding, and just plain fking attitude.

its hard to choose between friendship and relationship.
and i never want to do it ever again.
so dont make me.

thanks shawn. (:

2009-01-21T20:17:00.004+08:00

106th post.
and i just feel like posting again.

after watchng tv tonight, i guess i really want a sister after all. (: im not saying anything bad about bro. without him, my goal setting would be 'i wanna be a vet' and thats it. thanks for helping me realise what i really want in life.

i will stop being emo.
but the emo pictures wont stop.
it keeps me awake in class.
~~and from a mental breakdown.~~

2009-01-21T18:33:00.002+08:00

105th post.
wow my blog is old.

today is the offical day which ME walked all the way home from school. PLUS i even stopped by shawn's house. means i think i increased the distance. it tooked 40mins from shawns house. WOOHOO i rock. well, been wanting to do this for very long. i guess i got my long-lost self disclipine back. yups i love long walks. cause without knowingly, i thought about what i wanted in life. my life's in a mess now. everyone can see that. spacing out in class halfway. eating honeydew (i'm hungry!). and just plain watching thoughts swim around in my mind. haiz. i dont wanna go into olevels like this shit. so i've decided. im gonna start fixing myself. starting from my attitude. if u bochap me, that's what u're gonna get from me. no more caring more than i need to. well, its taxing on me. stressful. and just plain sianz. why bother? looking for someone when the one u can really count on at ALL times is none other than yourself. im not saying im dropping all relationships (be it friendship, r.s or family) just gonna spend lesser commitments and time on some of them.

thinking of getting a non-emo blog.
-www.whenallfails-dontworrycausesomeonewillbewatchingoveryou.blogspot.com-
but i think it's too long. playthateccentricbassoon
how about www.whenallfails-i'llbebesideyoualltheway.blogspot.com?

2009-01-20T20:29:00.002+08:00

104th post.
and its tuesday again.

wow what a nice way to start off my day. making up my mind to sack one section six member. oh no, im not blaming myself. sorry huangxue. it's not just for your grooming. it's your attitude. towards the board as a whole. even during band, don't forget you're still a councillor. pardon your dear section leaders for their incapability to explain this to you. cause they do not have the patience and mental strength to handle this fked up issue.
one word to summarise my life - moodswing. i don't know why. just feel so unbalanced. and i never seem to have enough time for myself. well, maybe i just gotta start getting used to be alone? don't worry people, i'll be fine.
found a special song. by david cook. lyrics include: so lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright. well, at least this seems practical. maybe i shouldnt get promises/answers/truth from you anymore. maybe a lie would work the best.
olevels. and this dear girl haven't found a sense of urgency yet. a pathetic C amaths WORKSHEET. mind you, it's just a worksheet. and i couldn't even get a good grade. whattheheck.
i've turned back into the forgetful girl i once was. just today, i forgot a total of 3 things. its time to really sort things through. no more screwed up schooldays. academics and me are gonna be all that matters.

sometimes, i just don't know what the hell i'm doing.

2009-01-19T18:00:00.003+08:00

103rd post.
and im surprised i found a seat on the bus.
okay now im speechless.

i find myself predicting the next word of songs, correctly. everything's so plain boring. 'in love with my best friend', 'i know this crush aint going away'. i want something special. how about simply alone? sometimes it's the best? why bother looking for someone who knows you well, when the one who knows you best is none other than yourself. no commitments needed, cause you can be right there for yourself 24/7. promises wont be badly broken, cause you'll know exactly how and well you've broken it. no explanations needed, everything's internal.

well, when something happens, i still find myself looking for you first.
so? it doesnt matter. since you wont even reply my fking message.\

sorry guys. just dont feel like replying tags.

2009-01-18T19:58:00.003+08:00

102nd post.
wow i have many blogs.

okay now i forgot all i wanted to blog about. ohh great! ytd i got my NICE cute pencilbox le. from taka. after spending quite some time walking around while waiting for ca^v^an lau to wake, he finally woke! yups he slept for 12hours straight. so anyway couldnt find the one i wanted, but nevertheless, i got a cute one!! and a doooodoll. (: yay! haha headed over to shawn's house for some homework then went jogging. this PRO girl jogged for 15 mins without stopping. whoa! i rock. haha from metal bridge to main road (kallang kfc) then back to metal bridge and to swing. even sprinted at the end. YAY ME! special thanks to my trainer, my legs and my stitch for not acting up as much. haha now i earned myself an ice cream. *winks* haha. yup. shawn, sooner or later, u're gonna go broke lurh. yups went home for dinner. after dinner went to grandma's house. got pissed on the way back so walk fast fast. regretted doing that cause my legs hurt like shit. ohh and yups the night's really boring.

today's even worst. haha spend first few hours in bed just slacking and dozing off again. woke and realised what a noob i am. cause i dont have a single idea how to prepare breakfast except scream for someone or go downstairs to get. :( yups then did work. went for lunch and waited for shawn edwin jamie and kelly to come over. yes and they arrived, in order. from 1:36 to 3:02. (: did more work, wrote postcards for my beloved section members and did my internship ppt slides. then bball and soccer downstairs. wow pro 3-pointer shots done by moi! guess my tyco-ness came back. so many *o* faces. haha yups. thats about it. dinner was boring.

you have no idea.
just how much you mean to me.

2009-01-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

101st post.
Have life gotten better? I think so.

Lessons were way boring. But I have to admit, Mr Chia's lesson really got me thinking. The goals we've set for ourselves arent pushing us forward but instead, they limit what we can do for ourselves. Well, it's scary, isnt it? 4, 8 or 15 years seems to fly past ever so quickly. Yet we are so unsure of what we will be, or even the mere what we want. It may sound selfish 'what we want'. But if we do not even know what we want, it's like running 2.4km without a destination, taking a bus without knowing where you are going. Life will seem so meaningless.

CCA. WOW. Amazingly, we did not have anything to do. As in no saikang - shit work. So Shawn and I sat like outside ITC room, watching movie. Haha, then some guys came over to join us. I can remember who, just lazy to type them all out. Then after CCA, soccer. And my impression of 4IT guys has just became worst. Well, feel so sore. Maybe it's cause of the many bumps I had and the stupid fall (cause by edwin yeap, roars). Yup, then went to Parkway in search of a GUAILAN pencilcase with Shawn. Thanks dude, for helping me carry my bag. But you still can't ignore the fact you look oh-so-reetarded. HAHA. Walked for so long but the closest I found was one which was shaped like an underwear that says 'boys are smelly'. I turned to Shawn and commented that he stink. So now he's bathing. Sorry Shawn. Headed home. Dinner was so-so. Drank carrot juice and orange juice instead of my daily serving of fruits because I'm so lazy to chew.

sometimes, you just leave me speechless.
maybe all we need is a brainbreak.

2009-01-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

100th post.
and it isnt a good one.

haiz. a pathetic B3. pathetic. what was i thinking? mugging and getting this shitty result. i needed the a1 or even an a2. and now, hope's gone. olevels isnt as easy as i thought it was. well, no more fun and games. (okay, maybe just a little bit) but ya, from now on, yiting's gonna be a good girl. she'll start studying HARD for tests and exams. start paying FULL attention in class. that's how life's gonna be till after my o's. i dont wanna waste a year then start regretting. yes. live life without regrets. i dont want to be stuck crying my eyes out at the end of the year. i dont want to have to choose between JC and poly, plus the doubt of being kicked out of JC. no way. yiting's gonna start being a winner! no time for being a loser.

after today, i realise how much experience actually means. olevels and exams seem so "passable" happy-go-lucky. but well, the pain comes when u know that pathetic B3's gonna stay with you for the rest of your lives. i cried. just a little though. thanks to rachel lynette shuhadah jamie junrui clarence kimwee and especially shawn. im sorry i felt sad, well, it's inevitable. but dont worry. i'll come back ready to fight again. tomorrow. tears. i dont ever wanna cry over results again. the feeling just SUCKS.

hennes. i cant believe it. after i got my result slip, after some time, i finally start to realise that deep down, it's yourself that matters the most. at the time that i needed you the most, IM SORRY, you just werent there. when i cried and i need some emotional support, IM SORRY, you just werent there. at your hardest moments, i was there. supporting you from behind. risking my phone to message you so many times, just to make sure you're okay. IM SORRY, you didn't even bother to reply. what can i say? you're just gonna tag to say i've flamed you again right? do whatever you want. IM SORRY. i've changed.

rachel.lynette.jamie.shuhadah.junrui.clarence.kimwee. thanks guys. (: you saw my tears. haha THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE RARE OKAY! 5th time i cried in this school. for once, not for him. then after that, for him. so ya anyway just loads of appreciation for just being there. hahaha to junrui: dont be so fierce next time kay?

shawn. hey dude. thanks. for everything you've done. well, at the time i was crying and even till now. just for you kept playing over and over again in my mind. i hate crying in front of people. really i do. it's so "embarrassing" haha! rest assured i'll be fine tomorrow. just hope my chem test's not going to be affected. emo-jogging on sat. i can own you man! :D

ijustwishihavesomebodytohug.
ipromiseiwontletgo.

2009-01-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

99th post.
another to hundred.
so close, yet so far away.

well to conclude, life's getting more and more frustrating. and im going to start a new posting style. which i think u guys are gonna get frustrated at.

okay to start, yesterday, i went to singapore poly and temasek poly. in the end, i decided to work and mug (and play) super hard. so i'll be able to get into the top JCs. and not get nagged at by everyone in my life. well i know thats not gonna happen, but i can hope right? hmm after that went to shawn's house with shawn and hennes. waited for edwin. JUST FOR YOU IS SUPERB. haha although i already listen like 5-6 times but i'm not sick of it and i doubt i will be (: okay then jogging. i've got to say i've improved a whole lot. my trainer agrees too. but well, stitch problem. hate it. it's like when i jog, im not tired. at all. just in pain. roars. roars. roars.

today. morning i went out. okay then did work in the afternoon and studied for biology test. wow im so guai. and yessh i finished studying both the super boring chapters bout your nerves and your eyeball. well, conclusion: why do scientists like to name every single part? and make us go through the shitt of remembering EVERYTHING. the same substance has two LONG names cause it's at different places of the eye. WOW. bball next. and ya fine there was this little guy who kept "oii"-ing me when i shoot. well, reetarded me replied "HI" everytime he did that. roars. what's with guys and thinking girls cant shoot? haiz nevermind, one day little boy, i'll own u again. (: although i dont look forward to meeting u.

i dont know why but the minute i walked into my room, looked at the messy floor, i just felt so frustrated. will someone pack my room for me, pretty please? okay, back to reality, yess mummy i'll set time aside to pack it. just gotta impress ms teo with my biology marks before anything okay? haiz life's difficult. but super ethan ain't a quitter. he's gonna fight till the end. i know he will. (: well, for all those out there, ethan's my nickname. and super ethan's kinda a superhero in me. everyone wants one. if no one's free, BE YOUR OWN HERO! why not? it just feels so great to have someone who's always by your side. whom you can count on no matter what. so what if that person is yourself? it doesn't matter. :D

i guess it's time for me to go now. 3 long paragraphs. im tired. im sleepy. im stinky. im out of biology knowledge. why why why? haiz. ohh man english test. ahh what the heck. i dont even know when is it cause i misplaced my handbook. 1st week of school, nice... anyway yups stinky ME shall go bathe now. or even super ethan's gonna abandon me.

iknowitsyou.

2009-01-06T19:02:00.005+08:00

98th post.
and emotional breakdown.
just for that 11.8seconds.

well short intro for those who has better things to do than to hear me rant about my life. which i wanted to say is pathetic but it is SO NOT.

exco. well, i just gotta say it's always "the pot calling the kettle black".
empty promises yet again, and it seems like we're not ONE.
latest ending at 4:30. turns out it dragged to 6plus.
why am i not surprised?
well, im totally fine with spending time.
we are supposed to be the ELITES.
dont you think we could have done so much more during that time?
miscommunication whatnot.
we SAY we're bonded. but open displeasure shown.
that's something we ALL gotta think about eh?

you.andyou. im disappointed. yes, promises not honoured. broken once and again. so sick of everything. well, it seems like u've once again put relationship matters over friendship. im not gonna say another word. but u've lost my trust in you.

hennes. i really had enough. no more. im not gonna be duped by you another time. your stupid promises. that u never fulfil. haiz. u want me to give u another chance. for the gazillionth time. well, prove it. prove that u deserve it. cause right now, all i can say is u dont. all i see is that immature guy who keeps repeating his mistakes despite saying/promising that he'll change. u want me to confide in u yet u're adding to my shit. please, when time comes, u always seem to be busy with everything else. be it work or whatever. i dont mind u working, i really dont. at least u dont spend the time idling at home. but well, how can u even offer to spend time with me during ur "working hours"? u're just showing me u're offering for the sake of doing it. im sick of everything. as i said, stop tying me down.

shawn. well as i said, it's like u're the only close but non-shit bringer. thanks for being there dude. it's like i dont know, u seem to be able to read my mind. roars. and sometimes it's not a good thing. (: just for you.

life's hard.
and nothing's gonna stop me anymore.
nothing else matters anymore.
just me and my grades.
plus non-shit bringer, of course
-antishitt-

2008-12-29T12:07:00.003+08:00

97th post.
and its another blogging fever.

haha recently started to post ever so punctually.
so those reading wont be bored...
see im like so nice. haha.
anyway got a bad bad stomachache and diarrhea.
so staying at home while the rest are at sec1 orientation.
haiz. hope i'll get better by tonight.
then mama will let me go tmr. YAY!
haha (: anyway yup now im in a confused situation.
school's starting in less than a week.
yes i've done my homework, with a few exceptions.
but somehow i dont want it to start.
i wanna spend like the whole day together with everyone.
but hopefully without the homework, stress and nagging.
olevels coming. yes i know.
with luck, i can run fast enuf to escape it?
ya whatever. me in my dreamland~

2008-12-27T17:24:00.002+08:00

96th post.
and i have no idea how to link this number to u.

haha sorrys!
anyway didnt post this post at ur house cause then, it'd lose its meaning.
haha anyway people.
this post is dedicated to shawntancheechong.
hahaha yessh i can imagine what u'll say lurhs.
takecares in m'sia.
and once again, thanks for msging me when im outta sg.
hahaha entertaining me when im bored.
and stop me from peeling. that sounds stupid.
anyway cant use com too long.
cause gotta go bathe.
and right now im typing SUPER fast.
nothing to laugh at mahs.
takecare dude!
msg me when u get back k?
and try ur bestest bestest to come for campfire!!
(: i love lollipops.
more singlets! but no loose pants.

2008-12-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

95th post.
and i've got so much to say.

life's too short for regrets
so i'll say it now and never again.
to all those out there, especially a certain someone:
do not insult my friends.
yes they're probably the most important people in my life.
those close friends are probably the main reason why im still here.
yes they push me forward and help me move on.
move on, away from the suffering.

to hennes: what's the point. do u even understand why i choose this path? u dont. u said so yourself. but i dont see any effort in trying to find out except kp-ing me and grumbling about whatever. i dont give a damn. life's hard. it doesnt have to be harder with you around. truly, im sick of all this shit. so maybe, with luck, u'll just leave me alone.

to shawny: okay no more emo post liao k? hahaha just so pissed lorh. like ARRGHH. yes it okay. i wont scream. its reetarded lurh. (: anyway im already smiling! hahaha owned. anyway yups im posting right after my tag and fulfilling whatever i said there. woohoo i dont break my promise. only one. hahaha. to u too, about sleeping at midnight and end up sleeping at 2am. thanks to a certain someone lorh.. but well, thanks for staying up!!

to all: i've totally given up on the things i dont need in my life. yup like perfect r.s or pleasing everyone. (: yessh things have gotten really simple. live and love. thats all.

2008-12-26T21:47:00.002+08:00

94th post.
and im at shawntancheechong's house.
wakaka yes i must write ur full name.
oh my gosh. this is reetarded.
haha STOP laughing at my typing lurhs!!
i love chocolate.
and i so hope my dentist dont see this.
thank you shawniie for the CHOCO.
wakakaka its making me high.
u cant jinx thoughts!
okay nvm blogging became about our convo.
wow at least something non-emo....
shawn: dont dot dot dot dot, thats emo!
ARGGH im not gonna type our whole convo.
my fingers are gonna DIE. hahahahaha.
too bad i still am.

for all those who are lost out there, that was the reply from me!
when shawn said all his lame replies hahahaha.
and the convo goes on... and on... and on...
k no more dots. cause if not, someone will deprive me of choco~

okay thanks to shawny!
for spending my first braces day with him.
ohh wait it should be his honour! so thank ME!
i have no idea how to reply u welcome in jap. so nvm. (:

no more shit in my life.
i said that and im gonna fulfil it. hah.
i will. (: okay wait i gotta pinky swear the lame dude.
*pinky swears*
k done. (: im not lame. cause i can WALK.
roars i have 5 mins. crap. nvm.
anyway yup im gonna be HAPPY!
cause of the many many people in my life that truly care about me!
yay them! (:

k thats all.
cause true intentions/meanings are conveyed not through words.
(:

2008-12-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

93rd post.
and im forced to post.

hahaha few names to sum up:
CHEEMEIXUAN
KEKQIANYUN
SHAWNTANCHEECHONG
will explain later.

meeting with mr chua ended early.
so went back to pc room to discuss whats for lunch.
decided on seoul garden and headed over to bugis.
after a long meal with some wastage, we are SUPER FULL.
meixuan wasnt. cause she vomitted everything out.
yup last man (WOMAN) standing is none other than yours truly.
of course, thanks to shawn for cooking/peeling prawns and lowell for the evil concoction.

went home with the above three reetards and play bball in the rain.
we were so totally drenched.
smelling like seoul garden, sweat and rain.
shawn went home, and me kek and cheeky watched tv.
then i went to bathe before sending kek to her doorstep.
mum decided ever so firmly not to let me go watch movie with shawns family.
so i had to stay home with smelly cheeky. hahahaha. sorrymx.
then WE WENT TO EAT SUPPER WITH JASPER.
it was SATAY. SATAY. SATAY. ohmygosh. SATAY!

haha okay so my xmas eve wasnt THAT bad..
went home and got nagged at.
once, twice, thrice...
spent my first few mins of xmas talking to cheeky shawny roi and lowell.
then the first hour doing my homework. wth. yes wth.
thanks to shawny boy who kept GRUMBLING at me to go sleep.
roars stupid threats of staying up with me.
the GUAI GUAI me gave in and went to sleep at 1:26am.
see im so nice. haha.

woke up went to vivo with mum and bro.
ate at some combined jap rest then walked around before tea-ing.
roars its not that i cant spend time at home.if u guys were nicer to me, things would be so much easier.i hate staying at home now. but well, i have no choice, do i?what matters, life goes on.it doesnt matter. the same pissing thing happens like what every hour we spend together. and u dont even try to fix it. just keep making it worst. yes u're making it worst. if u havent realised, lectures dont work on me. stop showing ur freaking pms to me. really. one moment the devil one moment the angel. sorry, if u think being smart, smiling and not showing ur displeasure to those around u will command u respect and admiration from relatives, it doesnt work on me. at all. im not trying to say that u suck or whatever, i have no right to critisize. (sounds familiar?) it doesnt matter what i do, u just wont see the effort. so why should i bother? stop critisizing me and then scold me for critisizing u. sorry, feedback doesnt work that way. well, if u're here, u would be saying im spending too much time on the com? hm u're so predictable. i no longer have no interest in spending time with u. just leave me alone.

msges:
hennes-some things are just unpredictable. im not even sure of where we stand at this current point. but well, i suggest we let things fade away. if there's really something we gotta do, we'll do it. just... not now.
cheeky-hey girl thanks for everything. really. (: really miss the times we could just slack around. well, life's hard. life's hard. and trust me, mine isnt much better than urs. we just gotta STICK tgt (not literally cause u stink!!) and see how things goes k? no matter what, we still got radio stations. HAHAHA.
shawny-dude. thanks. well i really dunno how to say, like everything's already been said to u. but ya, u've been a great friend! haha (: anyway more mugging time next year.
jasper-haiz u emo kia. hahaha still dare say me. ohh yes i went home and emo. but guess what, he's not the main reason. well, i cant have fun. with so many things to settle in life (including all the shit i got myself into) i can only enjoy to my heart's content with few pple. and yessh u're one of them. haha more satays to come ya? (:

2008-12-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

92nd post.
somehow its a nice number.
only you know why.

so many things happened in my life.
and one sentence to sum everything up
im here, standing proud and happy, cause of those close ones in my life.
they never fail to be there when i need them.
THANKS GUYS!

short post.
cause i gotta go sleep le.
more updates soon.
i hope.

2008-11-16T13:23:00.004+08:00

91st post.
what a night.

internship is finally over.
a big part of me wants it to end, at first.
but on the last day, hm.
let's just say goodbyes are the hardest to say.
so clever me decided not to.
and i'll be back to visit soon!!
now, another good reason to go back to the zoo.
(: reptile keepers:
thanks so much for the nice nice time i had there!
and to adil, no more superman days for you...

nice night. really.
i know its time to let go.
i really do.
i just cant bear to do it.
so i'll hold on.
cause i believe it's easier to hold on for now.
then let it go when i can.
thanks for last night.
really.
oh and im a big girl right?
haha u said so urself.
then still treat me like some little girl lorhs..
anyway thanks for sending me all the way home.
and... i prefer east coast park.
lol less errms ACTIVITY. (:
yup. and soon, i'll get a bigger teddy bear.
no more small pathetic and not huggable one.
(: thanks for everything.
BE PROUD OF ME OKAY!
cause i can take all those guys down. (:

its time to let go.
cause even now,
u dont give a damn.
so why should i?
if this r.s means something to u,
show me.
and stop trying to ask me to change.
it aint gonna work.
i promise to try my best.
i did my part.
YOU DIDN'T.
so no sacrasm no criticism for you.

back to my superman days.
just my friends and I.
[see jamie, my eng improve worr]

2008-11-13T21:04:00.003+08:00

90th post.
everything's screwed.

so much happened.
so little time.
so im just gonna end this with:

for those who care, i've finally broken up. yes yay but haiz truthfully im not okay. but i know with you guys, i'll be fine. life's been meaningful. and i learn so much. well a certain someone told me with every relationship (even failed ones) we learnt something. so.. i learnt never to trust guys as bfs. cause there's a jerk in every single one of them. and when they ask u to wait for them, u better think twice. cause there is never any gurantee.

for those who dont, just scram. i dont need ur sacrasm at this point of time. and to a certain someone who prefers being known by an alphabet, i dont wanna see u, ur alphabet or ur name. simply put, get out of my life. no more vulgarities or criticism here, thank you. cause they ain't appreciated at all.

for him, empty promises yet again. well, what can i say? u admired him right? so jealous i would cry over him and get myself so sad, well, u did the same. thanks. u've proven all my friends right? why not for once, just prove me right? i hate pple saying they'll do something when they wont. and fyi, if u still think its my fault in this failed relationship (again), THINK TWICE. call me a jerk if u want. at least i wasnt playing around with some bitch who only 'loves' me for my money during the time i should be studying for my olevels. i believe if it wasnt for her, my wait wont be as tough. nonetheless, this will still happen? cause u wont learn. cause u wont treasure. cause u'll always be that immature kid who will do whatever it takes to get what he wants.

my feelings stay.
dont ask why.
if u ever need my help in any way,
i promise i'll still be there for u.
but as a friend and nothing more.

2008-11-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

89th post.
TODAY IS A STUFF-YOUR-MOUTH-FULL-OF-MARSHMELLOWS-DAY!!!

today is the best day of my month.
sorry mouth.
whoa. it does NOT feel good with 11 marshmellows in your mouth.
i tried that today.
hmm maybe u should ask r0ii who had 26!
omg we are FREAKING reetards.

haha i had such a wonderful day today!
THANKS TO ROI TAN YU MING.
for camping at singpost bus stop.
for studying with me!
for sending me to the bus stop.
and ending up TOTALLY DRENCHED.
THANKS DUDE!
you always put a GREAT BIG smile on my face.

YES yiting will never be an emo kid anymore.
cause she knows no matter what,
she'll have a great great friend by her side!
(:

to r0ii: fat chick.
2 words says it all.

2008-10-21T20:14:00.002+08:00

88th post.
will things change for the better?

omg. short post tonight.
cause i really dont feel like blogging here.
yup. cut my hair. now it's long and thin(:
haha. but my hairdresser was weird today.
kept stroking my hair. SO WRONG. lol :D

11.11.2008.
the day i've been longing for.

2008-10-17T20:36:00.002+08:00

87th post.
ouch my butt hurts.

i really got no mood to blog bout my day.

interesting things that happened:
-lynette scolded vulgarities. OMG that is so rare. hah(:
-mr lim's inspirational speech. who knew he could make people cry.

yup nothing much le. haiz.
sorry mr lim. 3ep will produce results next year, we promise(:
we'll work hard. we'll prove all those teachers wrong.
thanks for teaching us and trying so hard!
so many different personalities.
so demanding.
so much trouble.
yet u're so nice to us~

i hate tears.

ipersevered.itried.ifail.
now all i want to say is: can i have my friend back?

it's harder than you think.
i ain't no quitter.

2008-10-16T19:59:00.003+08:00

86th post.
i love today.

biology debrief today.
did badly.
then emaths.
not well done either.
recess.
fuck. i dont wanna talk about it.
went to find roi at dl then...
wait i should skip this part too.
physics debrief.
OHH MY GOD.
i won my physics teacher.!
sorry roi. but weird theory got me 23/30 for mcq.
(: u really should try to understand my weird theory.
haha. yup then parkway kfc for lunch.
HAIYOH. wanted go home sleep de.
end up crapping so much with eugene.
on bus ride, walk and at home.
while waiting for roi cavan and edwin to arrive.
wow. i had a great but LAME time with eugene.
yup then soccer.
it was WET. and PAINFUL.
3 out of 5 of us fell.
me first. yayys(: cause the least serious.
haha stupid eugene kept laughing.
RETRIBUTION!
he fell right after me.
and got himself sooo dirty.
haha. then cavan fell while trying to 'save' a ball.
neither of them (ball + cavan) were saved.
poor poor cavan.
dont worry lahs ur injury VERY minor only...

how many more fucking times?
now im clear.

2008-10-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

85th post.
my life has been suckish.

realised i've havent been tagging for a long time.
so much have happened these days...
and i've tried soo hard to cheer myself up.
can i say when it only works 25%?
maybe some things should be left slack.
and not held so tightly.
some things that i, and we, should not care so much about.

well anyways here goes:
wednesday-
emaths paper.
then went to see ms serene lee.
i got into some sudoku finals.
haha nice joking with beeleng then.
(: i miss hm'ers.
then went to cage with roi and lyn and enlai.
nice bus ride i guess.
though some unhappy happenings.
and some emo talk with my dear lynette.
haha. yup arrived at cage and saw loads people there.
left halfway with lyn and roi.
[only the 3 of us know what's the true reason i guess]
went to kfc. [nope roi, not those initials]
ate with roi and lyn.
then they watch me eat.
since roi finished his two pc meal in the time lyn finish her cheese fries.
and lyn finished her meal in the time i finish my cheese fries.
haha roi eats SUPER fast. (:
then went to THE BASEMENT.
then went to THE ROOFTOP.
roi told the yoguru guy his yogurt joke.
GUY STUNNED. hahaa. soo funny.
sat at the GUMMY BEAR chair and chit chat for a while.
before me and lyn headed home.
thanks roi! for sending us to the bus stop(:

thursday-
went to school early in the morning.
for deco. SIANZ.
then go find tchr, she say 'i tot tmr?'
so we went to play bball. (: hot hot.
and boy did we lose our stamina.
then went to canteen chit chat.
help the ccls tie string a while.
ended up slacking more.
haha then we play with the shitty ball!
the bottle caps.
ohh man i miss soccer.
roi got stung by a spider.
and heroic ETHAN saved his life!
woots.
yup then went to parkway to meet lyn.
kop keith's wasabi fries.
and it wasnt really nice. haha.
went to ajisen ramen.
roi's curry burnt my ulcer.
btw shawn, it's still there.
ROARS.
rushed back to sch for cip.
tio con by tchr.
ms ho at first say finish moving tables can go.
then drag drag drag.
more and more stuff we had to do.
me and roi carried 4 a4 paper box each!
when we carried it, it was taller than us!!
haiz just to say that i've been real disappointed in some people.
like a certain guy who refused to be a responsible cip'ian.
forget it lahs. maybe sometimes we should put in our best.
cause we wont reap the things we deserve.

friday-
went to school early for deco.
today's almost the worst and almost the best too.
(: got chased out of school.
wow. haha aiyah, it doesnt matter to me.
cause i know i didnt do anything wrong.
yes u said we couldnt wear home bottoms to school.
but u said it on the day sec3s didnt need to come to frc?
would i be dumb enuf to wear home pants and walk to a dm,
if i knew it werent allowed?
haiz. some brain.
the respect reduced.
somehow i just dont like the way u discipline students.
and... it motivates me to either be a better tchr or not be one.
i choose the latter.
my attitude wont change.
as long as i believe what im doing is right.
scold me all u want.
but stop using 'you are a councillor' on us.
IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY.
then went to mac.
finally got my HOT MILK.
it was nice... haha.
stained my pants. roars!
but that was the end of my bad day.
went to kallang leisure, again.
ICE SKATE! woots.
it was freaking FUN! (:
lalala i didnt fall. yay me!
haha and i saved lyn's and roi's butt!
lol then went to eat dessert at the kopitiam.
it wasnt nice. but i love their company! (:
thanks guys. u rock! haha.
went to arcade. and i saw roi's gay side.
i mean, saw his gay side even more clearly.
haha he rolled up his pants and cover them with his jacket.
he looked GAY! haha pity no picture seh.
then went home.. i think. cant rmb(:

saturday-
went to the dentist.
ohh man. braces only after my batam trip.
which is in december.
busy busy busy girl.
too many commitments lers..
and i dont feel like going cambodia with YOU.
meanie lousy pple-chaser mood-spoiler.
yup then went to tm to shop.
mum embarrassed me AGAIN.
but still, i love going out with her.
hahah it's like bringing ur younger sis out.
SOO FUN! (:

sunday.today-
went to his house for tuition.
and his piano is totally off-tuned.
who uses a piano as a display item?
SIAO. anyway it was fun.
hah sorry i got mad at the last part.
i dont know.
i hate using ur phone only with u grabbing it away halfway through.
it makes me think...
haiz forget it.
i had EVERY reason to doubt u.
i still do.
what matters, work hard.
after olevels. after olevels. after olevels.

im tired. i really am.
thanks to roi and lyn.
who makes my day so much better all the time!
special thanks to roi.
the naughty one who refuses to stop replying even with burst-ed-ed-ed bills.
haha. (:

love wavers.
true love reignites itself.

true friendship stands the test of the extremes.

2008-10-03T20:35:00.002+08:00

84th post.
waaa. 16 more to 100.
and i'll fulfil my quota.
and.. own KC! (:

anyways today was FUNFUNFUN.
okay skip the whole big part bout EHISTORY.
me lyn cavan and r0ii went to singpost.
omg i kinda hate that place.
cause there's like nothing to doo there.
but i always say, it's the company that matters.!
so today was FUNFUNFUN.

went to subway, chat a little.
while r0ii and lynette finished their OH-SO-NICE soya ice cream.
which i didnt buy today and i regretted it.
so much. cause i bet it tasted ultra nice.
BUT YITING WILL STOP EATING SO MUCH.
HAH who am i kidding man?
haha i still eat like i do.
[to cavan: i dont care bout me growing fat]
haha besides i grew like 2.5kg since p6
and my weight is like within 37-37.5 kg range....
((: no edwin, yiting isnt fat!
she just eats a lot. for her size(:

then cavan left.
me lyn and r0ii went to eat our lunch!
sweet onion is... SWEET. NICE~
haha. but the nice aunty SPAM so much till it kept dripping out.
HAHA. yup then walked around ntuc.
looked at all those NICE food and NICE ICE CREAM!
new joke:
prawn mee = hei mee
prawn crackers = ?
the answer is....
prawn crackers = hei tior~
hahahahhahahahahahahaha
cause is xia tiao in chinese.
and hokkien always sound like chinese.
so this REEETARDED girl suddenly said HEI TIOR~
and 3 of us burst out in TOTAL UNCONTROLLABLE LAUGHTER.
oh then some random discussion bout:
-pads
-hair wax
-neutrogena shampoo
-BABY PRODUCTS
[im so gonna buy a silicon pacifier~]
-CHEESE and tofu.
omg i forgot le.
theres just too many things. haha.

went to watsons.
r0ii bought some dipper choco thing.
that made many people look at him after he ate it.
and he tried to wipe the choco on me!
EWWW. hahahaa.
then i kop some sugar bits! and i got high. haha.
ohh and the CONDOMS sold at watsons.
were placed in a TOTALLY NOT DISCRETE area.
and were within reach for children.
yup and some random words by me:
extra safe.
made r0ii turn back in shock.
yes i know i look innocent.
but after knowing u, my peaceful, non-pornish mind got totally POLLUTED.
u = MANY PEOPLE. kimwee. roi. edwin.
the main crimminals of pollution! ROARS.

yup then there's this shop in singpost which sells UNDERWEAR.
specifically quality ones that gives enough space for E_E_TION.
WHHAT THE HELL!
that shop is next to popular.
where little kids hungry for knowledge shop for books.
EWWW. totally polluted.

anyway then walked to the bus stop.
and while waiting for traffic light.
an aunty offered to share her umbrella with me.
SOOO nice rights?
hahaha it was SUPER hot man.
as in the weather.
yup. then went home. SLEPT from 530-7.
woke up ate dinner.
and here i am cause i tot roi could use com.
well, since he cant be online, byees people.
haha.

the indigo passion;
loves. ethan.

2008-10-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

83rd post.
yes one more and i can type 'th'.
(:

firstly, thanks to:
MR PIANO TEACHER
MR PORRIDGE-KOPPER
LEFTIE
MUGGER-BUDDY.
okay me no kid u le.
they are the same person.
hahahaha mr R0II TAN YU MING!
now everyone knows ur chi name.
wakaka.
anyway thanks for teaching me piano!
for a bowl of porridge an hour.
and tolerating my SMMAAALLL hands and weeaaak pinky.
[hey i hate them too]
hahaha but what matters, u made learning so fun!
and rewarding. haha i know i very talented(:
two days can play a bit of grade 5 liao.
and SOME MORE less than an hour's practise.
i so rock right? i know(:

people come, people go.
;but i still hate it that u had to go.
im sorry...
and i really hope one day,
you'll realise whatever you're doing isnt working/gonna work.
but from now till then, takecares.
(: and dont forget to stay happy alrights!
jasper loong.

c and r:
haha i hope u two know im talking about u here.
anyway STAY HAPPY TOGETHER ALRIGHTS!
and... be sure to understand the other
and... must solve all problems AS A COUPLE.
all the best (:

this girl's gonna retire from mugging soon.
yes and she's so gonna enjoy her holiday.
cause she deserves it.
not for studying hard.
not for the good results that she wont get.
just for holding on and trying so hard.
in her screwed up relationship.
once again, thanks guys for being there for me(:

2008-09-29T20:38:00.003+08:00

82rd post.
MAJOR CRAMPING SESSION.

today's our SS paper.
wrote non-stop for 1 and a half hours.
and yiting is so proud of herself.

sorry r0ii.
for making you cry today.
please dont cry when i do tomorrow alrights?
it hurts to see u so sad!!
cheer up k?
cause everything will be fine.
no matter how things turn out to be,
i'll have u guys by my side.
and so do u(:
plus i'll cook porridge to cheer u up!!

yes this reetard girl cried.
[and can i say, in front of cavan again?!?!]
ohh man no more reputation of the strong strong girl im supposed to be liao..
haha. anyways thanks guys.
for helping me see the true meaning of being in a relationship.
& the power of friendship.
i love you all!!

maybe deep down, u'll forever be a selfish bastard.

jasper: hey. i really miss talking to you. loads. someday. just wait, i'll prove that ur sacrifice is for nothing. (: its not gonna work. not like i didnt try it before. well thanks for being there for me all this while. i promised i'll be there for u always. i'll fulfil that promise.

& shes confused.
prove me wrong, hennes.

2008-09-26T15:29:00.002+08:00

81st post.
hah i rmbed its not 'th'(:

bio spa. then subway.
hah and i realised eugene is such a sweet guy.
one thing though: hes a real joker.
(: hey get yourself civilised.
and you'll be the perfect boyfriend.
see. im a motivator.!

aliciawee.aka.BOYFRIEND.
hey girl. as i said u almost made me cry today man.
yeah i know you aint being mean.
just truthful.
and the truth hurts me too much.
i wanted to say 'but hes the only guy i have feelings for'
but if i said that, my tears are sure to pour.
so i kept it inside instead.
yeah many guys out there. i know...
but they all aint him. right?
like so many girls out there.
but u're the one i chosen to be my BOYFRIEND.
same reasoning.
its like a special feeling.
that ~~same~~ heart-pumping feeling.
anyway thanks for being there for me.
after exams, thats the right time for me to cry.
now i just gotta fix my end-of-years.
cause i dont wanna drop a single of my trip science.
i love mrlim mrlam and msmong!

thanks roi.

2008-09-23T15:43:00.005+08:00

80th post.
nice number :))

and my day is great.

english exams turned out okay.
since i didnt screwed it up.
as badly as my OLEVELS PHYSIC SPA.
haha i screw it up a litle i guess(:

hm then macs at kallang!
in alphabetical order:
cavan.edwin.enlai.eugene.kianchang.kimwee.shawn.zongyu.
so many e's.
hm yup the walk to the bus stop to take bus 158 home.
AND THE BUSES DONT LIKE US.
cause 31, 158, 32, 14 came before we reached!
roars.
yup but nice kimwee waited for my bus with me.
THANKS MR KOHKIMWEE.
haha sorry for making u miss ur 32.
and making u board HOT AND STUFFY 14.
but i know u dont mind(:
haha anyways thanks.
for sacrificing ur dota for me!

oh girl. so sad u couldnt come.
took funny videos.
haha show u tmr alrights?
(: MISS YOU.
lynette. [aka. girlfriend.]

hey u ruined my mood in the morning..
haha no lahs, just kidding.
but promise not to treat urself like a substitute alrights?
u're not and u never will be(:
u deserve so much better.
and once again, thanks for being by my side.
jasper. [aka. 'boyfriend']

TO EVERYONE:
MUG HARD FOR EXAMS!
no matter who u are, i share some luck with u k?
cause im so nice. and random.

random convo:
background: kianchang loves tapping me on my shoulder.
and im so used to it that whenever someone
taps on my shoulder, i'll say 'KC'.
kc: *taps*
yt: KC
kc: who me?
yt: yes you.
kc: couldnt be.
yt: then who?
kc: who stole the cookie from the cookie jar?
yt: who me?
kc: yes you.
yt: couldnt be.
kc: then who?
yt and kc: *turns around, looks at kimwee*
yt and kc: kimwee stole the cookie from the cookie jar.
kw: yes.
yt and kc: *laughs* YES YOU.

haha omg we are CHILDISH.
nevermind. things like that put a huge smile on my face!
ohh and kc and kw, stop being sick. ROARS.
i'll punch u then take ur cookies. ((:

-thanks guys. suddenly memories of sticking together surface in my mind. i really treasure our friendship, no matter how small or insigificant it seems to be. everyone of you matters a lot to me(: thanks for being there. some way or another.
i shall not bother listing names or i might forget some. haha so if u're my friend, the above message is for u! (:

2008-09-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

79th post.
one more to 80.

hah im so lame.
anyway i specially came here for one person.
haha one request to post bout him(:

yes you. haha.
as i said, if u read this, u're so dead.
XD haha anyway i so miss our nightly talks.
really i do.
but 40mins last night. not bad wors.
and now that i know u din sleep after i did
im pissed. haha no lahs im not.
anyways take care of urself dude.
and dont emo le lah k?
shes not worth it(:
jasper
i shall not type that word here.
or i'll gg.

xoxo.

2008-09-15T18:01:00.002+08:00

78th post.
wakaka i love my tagboard.

lol thanks to a certain someone,
i gotta tag now.
so first, to her.
lol the jealous kia XD.

to mr BOYFRIEND:
haha see later i tio kp ur fault.
(: anyways love ur company DUDE!
ohh and see ar i got dedicate msg to u hor.
so dont jealous le k? miss u DUDE.
although ur class is RIGHT next to mine.
haha okok anyway heck care x or jy lahs.
guess it doesnt matter anymore?
their presence wont change my judgement/decision.
i hope.
what matters, i know u'll be there for me.
AND STOP MAKING ME BLUSH!
okay that was totally random.

to ms GIRLFRIEND:
hey girl! haha i know i could have just smsed u but...
haha since i tagged to ali dude so i guess i shouldnt leave u out!
wakakaka think im super nice sia. :D
and i dont know what to say le.
ohh right. u better start reading chinese storybooks/ listening to chinese songs.
or u will become the opposite of wumeixian laoshi.
yup and ALL THE BEST!
oh and i cant say add oil in chinese now. BLAH BLAH BLAH.

to mr cavan and edwin and roi:
haha thanks guys for always cheering me up!
cavan's "na ur dog.."
ROARS.
and always suaning me.
cavan's "some PEOPLE ar dont know how to listen."
ROARS. AGAIN. XD.
haha and edwins retard smile and random comments..
"bball?" "prata?" "fat sia u!"
ROARS X 3. haha later i really grow fat u DIE.
haha cause u promised to yang me if nobody wants me.
hahahaha but i got LONG QUEUE okay. ROARROARROAR.
roi. u and ur FRUITS. or rather fruit juices.
hha but the peach was NICE!
except i din dare to eat the part that touch the ruler.
which means i ate a lot of saliva.
come to think of it, YUCK! haha
and we ate in the staffroom.....
let me hear u say HEY HOHO. (:
love u 3 dudes sia.
MUG HARD! one last roar. ROAR.

okay one last person.
PAONEO. hah. i rmbed ur nick okay!
and stop touching my hair lah u.
eh i was really shocked to hear: i give u more stuff than i give her.
serious lah.. start treating her like how u should a long time ago.
if u're gonna continue being a jerk to her, im gonna slap u i tell u.
i've been there done that. i know how it feels to have a JERK as a bf.
so STOP BEING ONE.
ohh and thanks for that random blue pen.
haha and okay i wanted to say stop giving me random blue stuff but...
DONT STOP. haha. okok that sounds so bitch. nevermind..
LOL I AM DRUG FREE. haha im super drug free lahs. XD.
colinneoneo.

~~may our love die young.~~
may our love never die.

& i miss you.
and you.